Ugh!

I have been wanting to start a blog for a while now because I have a lot of thoughts that run through my head and SOME of them are funny or just worthwhile to share or maybe it is just because I used to write in a journal and I don't anymore and feel I need to fill that void. Either way, I have wanted to and now of course I can never think of what to write when I have time to write! So, tonight, just to get things moving, I am writing. The title of my blog is "Not What I Thought" and guess what, that is perfect for this subject too...This blog writing is harder than I thought! :) Ha!

Here is a thought. I went to a funeral today. The person is somebody I have known for wow, almost 20 years but was not terribly close to. And to be honest I was very judgemental of her and her family. They were just not 'cute' or 'normal' or whatever. Today the room was full of people that loved her. Her brother spoke of her and mentioned how they had recently become 'friends' and not just brother and sister. And her son spoke. Very well. It surprised me. I was surprised at my emotions and surprised at the stories I heard. Now I am finding myself feeling guilty and bad for being so judgemental. I am like that a lot. I KNOW that about myself. I need to pay more attention to that and realize that people are not always who I perceive them as. Who knows if I will really change or even make an effort but I did think about it.

Well, that's it for now I guess. :) (Ah...success!)